War Rant

I am so absolutely disgusted in so many ways about this war. I am
emotionally drained from watching the news, reading the papers, and
surfing the net.
This morning on CNN there was an email from some
jackass, responding to a Cafferty question, said that the soldier that
shot the unarmed man in the mosque was not a problem. Our people are being
attacked by religious, nut-bag zealots. I understand that they Iraqi's are
not exactly following the rules of war, but we did invade their country,
right or wrong. I can only imagine all of us would do if a country invaded
the US and we had to fight to keep it under our control.
I also
understand that is must be difficult to have such a frightening job and
the people you are fighting are hiding in mosques, in homes with
civilains,...what our men and women must be going through.
Al-Jazeera spokesman, Jihad Ballout (holy crap..what a name.
Jihad?), said, "We don't show acts of killing.We've never done
it before, outside war" as the reason they didn't show the video of
Margaret Hassan being shot in the head at close range. But they have
basically had a loop playing wit h the US soldier shooting the man in the
mosque. So, I guess they will showing a killing, just not when it is
showing an Arab doing it.

When we first went to war, I was
desperately sad because I knew that we were going to have to bomb
Afghanistan, and was heartbroken that the people, especially the women
were going to have to suffer more than they already do. I had been reading
about the conditions of the Afghani women for years. I pretty much
supported the president because I assumed he was being honest and
forthcoming. As the truth began to unfold over the years, I felt betrayed.

I read more and more about how we have trained and supplied the
countries we have to end up fighting. I know I am over simplifying it, but
can't we possibly just stop giving weapons to every damned little group
that is trying to overthrow our enemy du jour? This is starting to get
old.
Connor is driving me crazy. He is not trying at all in school. He lies. He does half assed work constantly. He is still making an F in reading. This is a child with a reading vocabulary on an
11th grade level in English. He reads on grade level in Spanish. And he is
failing 5th grade reading. We have a reward system set up, but he hasn't
been rewarded lately as he has been doing sweet F.A. in school. He gives
me hopeless answers when I ask what we can do to help him. I am nauseas. I
couldn't eat breakfast this morning because I am so upset with him and now
I will be working from 9 am to 9 pm and I am fairly broke. I am gonna eat
a homeless man on the way home.

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our systems are down and I cannot do much except email. show me love.

loooooooong day

I have a job interview tomorrow for a relationship banker position with
another bank. I do not know if I want it. I do not know if they will pay
me what I need.
I am also afraid I will charm myself into a job that
I am not capable of performing well in, let alone exceeding expectations.

This bank doesn't require any licensing for the position, unlike my
current employer. I am comforted by that and by the fact that I am
constantly stupified at the lack of basic banking knowlege of the
relationship bankers that call me for assistance at Bank One. This
ignorance also pisses me off because they make gobs more money than I
do.

I signed on to work from 9am to 9pm today. I began to regret that as 3pm came and I was exausted and cranky.
I am glad I did. I needed the hours and I forgot how relaxed it is in the evening. When I
first started at Bank One, I worked 12pm to 9pm. I enjoyed it, but forgot
what Connor's face looked like. I then switched to the 9am-6pm schedule I
have been working for the past four and half years. It has been balls to
the wall ever since.