oh thank-fricking-god

after a hair dye mishap about 5 weeks ago, which left my dark brown hair with roots that boardered on blond and rest of hair a med golden brown, I have dyed it back to a deliciously normal and attractive dark ash brown.
Oh happy happy day.

I am missing me

I may just be hormonal. I may be moody because I started my medication for ADHD again. But I feel this way everytime I take it after not taking it for a while.
I know I am flawed and need the meds to focus and get things done. I know that Fini finds me difficult to take. I do not feel like the same person on medication for ADHD. I am so calm. I laugh less. I always laugh so much. All day long I laugh. I laugh less now. I watch stand up and am enjoying it, thinking it is funny. There is no laughing. I talk less. That is a big deal. People talk to me and say that they enjoy being around me because I am funny and tell a lot of stories. I riff on things and am quick witted.
Now I am quiet. There is no rapid fire speaking, there is no laughing. I am not upset. I am calm. I am peaceful. I am productive.
What if I am not as likeable? What if I am boring now? I am kind, I am generous, I am thoughtful and creative. These are not reasons people like me and are drawn to me. It is the quick wit and hearty laughing.
I am missing me quite a bit and am scared to be the girl on the meds.