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So.... CT Scan this morning. Still have the headache. Have had it since April 25th. It is not nearly as bad as it was (my hair no longer hurts) but yesterday, the "ice pick headaches" started in addition to the headache I already had. It isn't terribly professional to scream "FUCK!!!!!" and grab your head for 3 seconds every 20 minutes at your desk.
I am trying to not fret since they are not likely going to find anything wrong. However, I am a fretting artist. I work in worry the way Monet and Van Gough worked in oils. It is impressive. Once something is done, I am fine. I am all about, "okay. What is done is done. How do we handle this now" but until then, I fret.
It doesn't help that the last time I had a CT Scan, I was 9 and they found a tumor. It also doesn't help that my sister died of brain cancer. Just trying to push all that back and wait until I have a clue what is going on.
goodnightnowgo took me and we had a delicious breakfast afterwards. She is wonderfully supportive. She is a great friend. She always makes me laugh.
Everything is likely just fine. Maybe it is stress. I should meditate more.
The CT Scan was much better than when I was little. The injection didn't burn as much.

I am trying to not fret since they are not likely going to find anything wrong. However, I am a fretting artist. I work in worry the way Monet and Van Gough worked in oils. It is impressive. Once something is done, I am fine. I am all about, "okay. What is done is done. How do we handle this now" but until then, I fret.
It doesn't help that the last time I had a CT Scan, I was 9 and they found a tumor. It also doesn't help that my sister died of brain cancer. Just trying to push all that back and wait until I have a clue what is going on.
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Everything is likely just fine. Maybe it is stress. I should meditate more.

The CT Scan was much better than when I was little. The injection didn't burn as much.
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Date: 2008-05-06 05:19 pm (UTC)