Headache

[sereneorange]

So.... CT Scan this morning. Still have the headache. Have had it since April 25th. It is not nearly as bad as it was (my hair no longer hurts) but yesterday, the "ice pick headaches" started in addition to the headache I already had. It isn't terribly professional to scream "FUCK!!!!!" and grab your head for 3 seconds every 20 minutes at your desk.


I am trying to not fret since they are not likely going to find anything wrong. However, I am a fretting artist. I work in worry the way Monet and Van Gough worked in oils. It is impressive. Once something is done, I am fine. I am all about, "okay. What is done is done. How do we handle this now" but until then, I fret.

It doesn't help that the last time I had a CT Scan, I was 9 and they found a tumor. It also doesn't help that my sister died of brain cancer. Just trying to push all that back and wait until I have a clue what is going on. 

goodnightnowgo took me and we had a delicious breakfast afterwards. She is wonderfully supportive. She is a great friend. She always makes me laugh. 

Everything is likely just fine. Maybe it is stress. I should meditate more.

The CT Scan was much better than when I was little. The injection didn't burn as much. 


 

Comments

[pulsecub.livejournal.com]

Look, I know this is going to sound out there, but as someone who suffers from migraines as well, I understand what you're dealing with to some degree (I went through the whole range-of-tests thing, including the MRI back when I was about 30, and they didn't find anything wrong with me either), and can tell you that some alternative forms of bodywork have helped me significantly.

If you're open to it, might I suggest you find a local practitioner(s) of:
1. Reiki
2. Cranio-sacral Therapy
3. Spinal Touch Therapy
4. Polarity
5. BodyTalk

And don't discount the power of a regular Swedish Massage either...

Good luck, and [HUGS]!

[serene-orange.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much. I will look into those. I appreciate it .

[serene-orange.livejournal.com]

have you ever had a migraine that the immitrex didn't fix? I had a shot of that and torodol last Tuesday and it certainly lessened the pain (no more crying and my hair stopped hurting) but it didn't get rid of it completely.

[pulsecub.livejournal.com]

Yeah. The Imitrex can be hit-or-miss for me. Fortunately I haven't had one that bad since I lost about 20 pounds...

But honestly, you'd be suprised how much your posture can affect things. Try some of the body work, especially the cranial-sacral and the spinal touch. You'll notice a difference. After I had one spinal touch adjustment, I was able to sleep through the whole night for the first time in months.

[serene-orange.livejournal.com]

well, I definitely need to lose 20lbs... or 120.. whatever.

I am working on it.

[pulsecub.livejournal.com]

Good luck; I sincerely hope you find some relief from the migraines.

[rainygirl.livejournal.com]

You are in my thoughts. Let us know what they say!

[serene-orange.livejournal.com]

Thanks

[tydestra.livejournal.com]

You probably suffer from Suicide Headache...

Welcome to the club!

[serene-orange.livejournal.com]

I was looking at that yesterday wondering.


I do not think I care for that at all. I vote no.


BOOOOOOOOO!

[tydestra.livejournal.com]

They're great because the drawing is actually what it feels like.

Oh and the pain and the crying and the rocking back and forth... the going through the 4 stages of emotion - disbelief, anger, compromise, acceptance in like 5 mins.

[serene-orange.livejournal.com]

I had my friend, Eric, squeeze my head for me a little while ago. That gives great temporary relief for about 20 min. We found that out when my sister was having such horrid migraines.

[theclamsman.livejournal.com]

Did that in college. Doesn't work for me anymore.

I did have chronic migraines before I went on my regular bunch of medication here, too. I haven't had a stabbing migraine since...maybe last year, when I had the chicken pox. Right now it's a mild ache and it feels like something might come on, but I took some Vicodin. Not that it's working. =_=

[juciest.livejournal.com]

I hope everything turns out ok and you find relief soon...I woke up this morning with a cranial neuralgia headache and it keeps stabbing me in my right ear...I hate them.

Big hugs!

[serene-orange.livejournal.com]

gah. This shit better be temporary. I am really not going to be alright with having to deal with it on an ongoing basis. I have always been fairly healthy.

[i-fart-bats.livejournal.com]

i can't imagine even a small portion of what you're going through. i get ice pick headaches from time to time, though. they're the WORST. completely and totally incapacitating.

i hope they figure out what's going on and that it's nothing serious that can be easily managed. <3

[mehnaravenstar.livejournal.com]

Ok, what am I looking at?

I hope you're feeling better soon... :(

[serene-orange.livejournal.com]

needle hanging out of my arm waiting for the dye injection

[mehnaravenstar.livejournal.com]

eeew

[popfiend.livejournal.com]

Thoughts and prayers babe.

*HUG*

[theclamsman.livejournal.com]

Oh, my. Shit, baby. You better not die on me! I will kill you! (Ha ha, I get that all the time from people...)

No, seriously. If it turns up you're gonna die on me, I have to scrape up the resources to go to Texas this year. This isn't funny. HEADACHES BEGONE!!! (I've got one right now too...had one for a couple of days, actually, but I think it's from the lack of my own meds.)

[serene-orange.livejournal.com]

I can imagine the pain you have causing a headache.

How about some good vibes, not plans to see me before I croak.? lol

[theclamsman.livejournal.com]

Or maybe if you DO plan on croaking, taking your own trip up here? You ever been to see the GG Bridge and all that is wonderful about San Francisco? Bet Con would love it.

Of course, you'd be taking him to the zoo and making fucked up suggestions/teasing him about petting the tigers.

[shimmerdance.livejournal.com]

holy fuck, honey.

I love how you post this really scary shit with humor. fretting as an art is lovely.

will keep fingers metaphorically crossed

[serene-orange.livejournal.com]

oh you have to keep the humor. It is the thing that will keep you from completely losing your shit.

My sister called on a November morning to tell us she had a stroke and they found the cause was a brain tumor. She was 45 years old. It was on the same day that our father died. She said,"Maybe it is like Daddy reaching out from the beyond to tell us "hi".

I said, "Tell him to shoot me a fucking email. I don't need anything more intimate. Shit. He died when I was five. We weren't close"

We ended up naming her tumor "Flubber". We had to crack jokes to keep from crying

[shimmerdance.livejournal.com]

Have you ever thought about writing a book? I could see it being used by grief counselors and support groups and such. You have a lovely way with words.

[serene-orange.livejournal.com]

That is sweet. Nah. I blog. I don't have the attention span for much more. Plus. there is no way I can write down most of this shit where my parents could see. Maybe when they pass on.

I have accidentally left a few things public (though I suspect my subconscious knew what I was doing) and cause my mom to cry. I did get the apology I needed for her letting my dad beat the living fuck out of me. He had made amends YEARS ago. Several times. She went searching for people to apologize to for small transgressions 30 years ago across the country but couldn't muster a "gee, I am sorry I married a schmuck and gave him free rein to torture you" for me.

She said, " I am so sorry. How can I fix this? "

I said, "That was it. You said you were sorry. It is done. "

then I locked the post so Dad wouldn't find it.

So I have to wait until they die because if they read it all, they would croak.

[shimmerdance.livejournal.com]

wow. That is amazing. Good for you for saying what you needed, and for being able to truly let go and forgive. And good for her for figuring it out, albeit a bit late. Dang. That's marvelous.

Well, if it can't be a book, I'm glad that at least I get to read about it. It is poignant, funny, and inspiring.

xo

[rubygloomrox.livejournal.com]

You should treat yourself to a massage.

[serene-orange.livejournal.com]

I am really needing one

[theclamsman.livejournal.com]

I sure hope you're o.k. You haven't posted in a few days and I'm getting worried.

[serene-orange.livejournal.com]

I am okay. see new post